LOVE

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenver the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

... There are three things that will endure - faith, hope and love - and the greatest of these is love.

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13

my battle cry

These past few months I have been fighting different battles. Emotional battles. In all these battles God has been and will always be faithful. HE never left me. He heard my cries, saw each teardrop fall and offered HIS hand each time i fall. and so, everytime the pain is unbearable... I shout my battle cry... God's word and promises

* Early this year, I was struck with a disease, that i never thought i'd get in to. I was so down feeling like the whole world crushing on me..like the end is near for me. I had so much dreams in my life and I worked hard, really hard...but when the disease came...i felt like all my dreams slowly fading. I cried hard...really hard every night,bitter cries of WHY's. Thank God my family was so supportive of me,a few friends who understood and extend their emotional support, my boyfriend Aloke who comforted me,encouraged and even walked beside me all the way. So, with all these people around me...cheering at me as I faced the giant. I slowly stood up and uttered my battle cry..." He ( GOD)forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases"-Psalm 103:3. Then instead of asking why, i started asking WHAT...what are the things HE wants me to learn out of this.. and things change because my mental perception in the battlefield changed.. It didnt heal me overnight...but healing came gradually. I started to see the blessings and not curse. I started to appreciate HIS perfect time table designed only for me...Along with all those, the LORD chose to use me and bless others. I coordinate,teach and lead worship in a Friday Fellowship with a choir in a small chapel, on Saturdays i teach and facilitate cell group for the young people,and Sundays i worship the LORD by being a part of the choir. More than being a blessing i get so much bless myself. I won my battle bec. I have a big GOD!

*Early August of this year Aloke left the country to study in Singapore. The day he left, i looked perfectly fine..we kissed and said our goodbyes. But that night i called my friends and we gathered in a small veranda of my friend's place and there.. I cried so much! Sobbed like theres no tomorrow. They just listened...didnt say anything, just listened and comforted me. The days & months past, Aloke and I are still fighting our battles. We both believe that this is part of God's plan for us. But many times i get wounded in the battle, Aloke had to remind me many times that we are in a "long distance relationship" and that we both have to live a normal life. Many times i'd cry and ask help because i can't take the emotional depression going on inside me. My battle cry.. "My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, But God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever.-Psalm 73:26 came to me in a powerful way. God never fail to offer HIS loving hand. So i slowly stood up and face the giant. We are still fighting this battle though.. It's sooo hard! But as long as we cling on the LORD and believe on HIS perfect plan for us...We will win this battle. Someday, in HIS time.

*September this year i took the Phil. Licensure Exam amidst the fact that i was way late for the review. Review centers closed their doors for applications. I just reviewed by myself when most of my friends had group studies and regularly attend in their respective review centers. I took the exam with faith on a loving GOD who knew exactly what i'm going through and how i studied hard.... and I waited...waited for almost two months. The battle inside was very hard, arrows of fear and doubt came on my way...My battle cry became... " God is faithful,He will never fail!" November 15, 2008 they published the successful examinees...i read my name and rejoiced with my family and friends..the faithfulness of GOD. I won the battle!

... the list goes on and on.Battles are always there and they come in different situations. But I have a big and faithful GOD! I will win the battle!

i passed the board!!!!

I took up the Phil. Licensure Exam for Professional Teacher last Sept.28,2008...and waited for the results... Man, the waiting was that LONG....but its worth it! November 16,2008...the website of the Phil.Daily Inquirer posted the successful examinees for the said exam...and...... I PASSED!!!!! :D

Thank You LORD!!!! You are really faithful!

Thank you also for ALL those who prayed for me...God bless you!

To my sister who bought me the reviewer, prayed hard and included me in their intercession..Thanks so much sis...it means A LOT to me!

To my family...who is all so supportive! thanks!

To my khushi Aloke....for believing in me...and always giving me all the encouragement i need...for the support and prayers!!! Thank you!

To all my friends who prayed hard for me...God knows who you are...you will get your reward!

...of Racism in Singapore

I was with a bunch of guys the other day, and this is what happened:

Aloke: Oy

Singaporean: Are you Filipino?

Aloke: lol, no, why?

Singaporean: Becauce you said 'oy'

Aloke: I say that all the time lol

Singaporean: Yeah I thought you were one of those stupid Filipinos who depend on Singaporeans to make money. 

Okie, I'll come clean. I was playing DotA online. Yes, I still play sometimes. It is quite entertaining... except when you have conversations like this with such people. 

Here's some crazier stuff I got when someone got ticked off at the way I played. 

Singaporean: Fuck you noob. Your mother whore. I track you down. I go your house and make her suck my hairy dick. I know your IP address.

Aloke: Dude, you have a problem with me. Not with my parents.

Singaporean: Fuck off noob 

This has actually happened several times, and every time, they get ticked off at someone, and promptly begin to heap insults at the person's parents, usually the mother. 

I hear Singaporeans strutting around talking about how 'civilised' they are. Here's what I say - bollocks to your so-called civilisation. As long as you still have people who are racist, who litter, who smoke and piss in elevators, sniff glue (I have actually seen this), use profanity like water, steal bicycles - the list is endless - you have no right to consider yourselves any more civilised than the rest of the world. 

So get off your high seats before you come crashing down because of your big heads.